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The life of a fiendish schizophrenic.

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Singin' at the moment: Ha Ha by All Saints



Yesterday was indeed fun. Isaac picked Lorraine and I around 1-2ish with his friend Raul. Raul throughout the entire day was just pretty chill. Anywho, he takes us over to Palo Alto first to Verde. I had a chocolate toast with a Passion Love drink [strawberry and banana smoothie] and Isaac ordered some fried tofu. Mmmm.... tofu goodness. Afterwards, we headed over to Newpark Mall to meet up with Chris first known to Lorraine and I as "Tajiri". Lorra and I have been friends with him for quite some time now, I even knew him before I knew Isaac. Most of the reason why we went to the Silicon Valley area was to finally meet him, since he might be moving to Arizona soon and we might never have the opportunity to meet him.


We called Chris when we arrived at Newpark, and we told him to meet us up at Red Robin [since that's where we parked]. Isaac and Raul went off their seperate ways and we waited there for a little less than 5 minutes. Chris said he got lost from Macy's to Red Robin, which was pretty funny since Macy's is RIGHT NEXT to Red Robin. lol. Silly Chris. So yeah, we just walk around the shitty little Newpark mall for 30 minutes-an hour. Lorraine and I were quite hesitant to go shopping or try anything on since we felt kind of guilty dragging Chris along, so all we basically did was walk around.


We got really bored after a while, so we waited for Isaac and Raul to finish browsing at Game Stop and we headed towards Century 25 to watch a movie. We ended up seeing Freddy vs. Jason at 4:10... which I have got to admit, is pretty corny. Isaac tried scaring me a few times on the little mini climaxes of the movie since he's already seen it before, and I *did* kind of scream at one part of the movie, but it was still corny. You could see the blood just SPLURTING and GUSHING out of every single cut and slash... it was just way too much. The best part of the movie happened before it even started. Lorraine and I were 'running' up the stairs of the movie theater to get to the top row. Lorraine slipped, I slipped, and we started cracking up as we continued running up the stairs. Mmm. Being clumsy is fun.


We decided [or I decided since no one else knew what they wanted to do] to go to In n' Out. Lorra and I split a cheeseburger. The end. No, just kidding... we chilled there for a while and we headed for MGL where some drama happened. Lorraine rode with Chris and got lost in the way. I just waited at MGL and borrowed a few tokens from Isaac since Lorraine had all of my money in her wallet, and as I was walking around, I saw Ed's cousin. I was like, "Whoa wtf I know you. OH! [oops he's Ed's cousin] Umm... is Ed here?" He nodded, and pointed outside. I started walking out and saw Isaac walking in. He was like, "Dude Ed's hella mad. I don't know what's going on, he just started cussing and he's just pissed off. Your friend Chris is leaving, too." Kwa?


I went outside and saw Ed and Lorraine fighting and headed for Chris's car and realized that he was about to leave. Isaac went with me, and as I was walking to his car, I realized what happened. Ed was jealous because Chris was there. Uhh.. let's just leave it at that. I talked to Chris for about a minute, we said our goodbyes, and I headed back for MGL. Lorraine and Ed were still fighting, so I chilled inside for a while. God, it took forever for them to make up and when they did and everything was okay, we [as in Lorraine, Isaac, Raul and me] headed for SVGL since MGL was dead as fuck.


There was quite a few people at SVGL. I saw Orochi, Lil' B, Roli, Mike, DJ 8-Ball. I played Guitar Freaks for a while, played a game of PIU, finally got a blue Initial D card, but I just mostly chilled with the few people that I knew that was there. Mike got annoying after a while and I eventually started using him as a punching bag. I saw Samantha, Roli's girlfriend. I don't really personally know her, I'm just friends with her boyfriends. Her last boyfriend was this guy that I knew from a loooooong time ago named Joseph [Apostle]. I used to talk to him all the time and I met him at the CVGL tournament, where I re-met Samantha. I first met her at the old school Metreon tournament, where my brother thought she was flirting with him. Which I think she might have been, but she had a boyfriend at the time, too [I think she was with Joseph back then, too. I just know they were together for a long time].


Anywho, after we got bored of SVGL, we headed back to Santa Cruz. We made a quick stop at Verde, where I got another toast [this time peanut butter] and I got this reaaaallly good melon smoothie. *drool* So FUCKING good it gave me an orgasm. lol. The ride home was just... chill. Isaac switched cars [from his mom's Mercedes Benz to his own car.. forgot what it was]. Isaac just recently installed this huge bass in his car. The boom in his car felt like a massage and it was nice until my head started throbbing from the noise so I asked him to tone it down a bit. After that, the ride became more chill and it was nice just laying in the back of his car with Lorraine just talking and listening to music and just chillin'.


God damnit Isaac starting to get me to say chill like every 5 minutes now. x_o;


Today's plans


Today, I plan on draggin my mom to the mall so I can get a new hole pierced on each ear, and to have my cartileage [sp?] pierced as well. Oooh it's going to be cute as hell once school starts. Hee hee. My mom's going to be cooking all day for the party in Watsonville tonight since it's a pot luck, and probably afterwards my piercings, I might go to the Boardwalk since Mike told me that he, Roli and Bernard were going to stop by today. I then would have to get back home or get picked up by my mom to the party, which should be pretty decent if there are any cute guys over there. If it's just a party with old Filipino people that i don't know, I would probably be bored enough to just walk home all the way from Watsonville. lol. It SHOULD be alright... i guess. At least there's free food! XD


Okay I gotta go now and get ready for the mall/Boardwalk/party. Wheee! ^.^

Woooh! Yesterday was fun. Too bad I have to go get ready to go somewhere right now, so I'm going to have to blog about it later. ;D

Thursday, August 21, 2003

Song of the moment: Alive by P.O.D.


Damnit. I can't get along with anyone in my family, I swear. I hate living in this fucking hell house. Right after I get into a fight with my mom, my brother starts bitching about me going into his room and taking a DVD that WASN'T HIS ANYWAYS. He attempting to argue with me, but he was so mad that he started stuttering and I just yelled some remark back and let him slam the door with anger and frustration without finishing his side of the pointless debate.


God damnit... I am living in hell, I swear. GET ME THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!


gEnErAzNxPnOi: hi ate
I am NOT pangit: heya
gEnErAzNxPnOi: kumusta ka nah?
I am NOT pangit: ehh... so-so
gEnErAzNxPnOi: bakit?
I am NOT pangit: i just got in a fight like, with my entire family
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: but one by one

gEnErAzNxPnOi: o.0
I am NOT pangit: right after i got into a fight with my mom, i got into a fight with my brother
I am NOT pangit: and then my sister
I am NOT pangit: now i locked myself up in the computer room
I am NOT pangit: and i'm ignoring everyone
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: my family hates me
I am NOT pangit: XD

gEnErAzNxPnOi: o.0
gEnErAzNxPnOi: man...thats pretty rough
I am NOT pangit: haha yeah
I am NOT pangit: i'm used to it though
I am NOT pangit: i'm a loner in my family
I am NOT pangit: ^^;

gEnErAzNxPnOi: luckily..i only have two peepo in the family to fight with
gEnErAzNxPnOi: but you...u have like....4
I am NOT pangit: 3
I am NOT pangit: my step dad moved away

gEnErAzNxPnOi: ohh
gEnErAzNxPnOi: wut happened to ur bio dad?
I am NOT pangit: he died when i was 3
gEnErAzNxPnOi: ohh
gEnErAzNxPnOi: man...sorry
I am NOT pangit: i had another step dad, but he died when i was 11
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: it's okay
I am NOT pangit: it's better that way, he was a big drunk anyways

gEnErAzNxPnOi: oh
I am NOT pangit: and i wouldn't be here right now if he hadn't died
I am NOT pangit: it's a teriible thing to say
I am NOT pangit: but yeah

gEnErAzNxPnOi: oh
gEnErAzNxPnOi: woah
I am NOT pangit: hey i gotta go, i'll ttyl
I am NOT pangit: bye byeeeee

gEnErAzNxPnOi: awieee
gEnErAzNxPnOi: kk
gEnErAzNxPnOi: c'yah ate!!

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Singin' at the moment: No such thing by John Mayer


OH my fucking God Shane West reminds me of a younger version of Chris Cornell. Holy shit he's hot.... I'll post pictures up later since my computer is being all shitty and I still don't have Photoshop yet. Stupid mom deleted it and everything else I had on the computer, including my ENTIRE mp3 collection that I had saved. Now I live by the CD that Milton gave me, Winamp radio, and downloading random songs from the Internet and from random people. Blagh. Someone send me a music CD =\

Singin' at the moment: What I got by Sublime


Screen shot of the moment... wheee


Picture day was yesterday... I had to wake up semi-earlier than I have been waking up this past week, but it wasn't that bad. I pissed my mom off by going extra slow getting ready since she really wanted to go to work early, and must have honked the horn 5 times. When I got to school, I realized that I had to fill in a bunch of bulshit paperwork just so I could get my fucking schedule, so I went to the office and told them that I never got any paperwork. They verified my address which was right, but I said I could have sworn I didn't get anything in the mail. The lady looked at me in suspiscion for about six seconds and finally gave in and gave me the paperwork. I went outside, snagged some chick's pen, filled it out and forged my mom's signature. I thought to myself, "Oh well, I really don't think she'll care. And if she does, she can kiss my ass because I really want my schedule." ^^;;;


I'm pretty happy about my schedule. The only thing I changed was Chemistry... *cringe* I seriously don't want to take that. Physics is much more appealing to me. So yeah! Here's my super fun schedule for Fall semester:


Harbor


American Lit. Honors [English Honors]
Analysis
Government/Economy
ROP Cisco Networking
Art 2/3/4
Physics
Drama


Cabrillo college


Italian
Speed Reading
Guitar


I'm thinking of dropping my Speed Reading class, since it starts at 4 and I might not get there in time since I'm going to be attending Harbor from 7 AM to 2:50 in the afternoon. I would have to take the bus there, so that's like the main problem since the stupid bus schedule is sometimes out of fucking order. I started thinking of dropping my Speed Reading class and adding the Intro to Astronomy class. *orgasm* I seriiiouuusssllly want to take Astronomy. That whole field just interests me so much, but then I think about all the homework that I'll get and then I think about all of the hard classes I'm taking right now at Harbor. My main priority right now is to get good grades in highschool, and I'm actually just taking these cabrillo classes for fun. I love to keep myself busy. It prevents me from getting all lazy and dumb like my stupid brother and sister, and it also keeps me from gaining weight! =D [since I wouldn't have all that extra time at home to eat and pig out. lol]


Okay, so Jaime should hopefully be visiting me today. God damn that fool is so lazy. I might go to the mall to buy some new pants or something. Guar. Oh yeah!!! I'm going to Fremont tommorow [if Isaac comes through] with Lorraine where we can finally meet out long-time buddy, Chris. He's like one of Lorraine's bestest guy friends and they're always talking. It'd be cool too, since I barely get to hang out with Isaac anyways. My mom says that if I can get a ride to Fremont, [she was thinking of Lorraine's parents, not some guy that she has no idea about] and she can pick us up when she gets off work or something. I wouldn't want Isaac to drive back and forth and back to Palo Alto like what he did last summer. W00t, I would be the happiest panda in the world if everything and everyone comes through this week.


Saturday is going to be fun, I guess. I really don't know what I'm going to do before 7 PM, but I know I'm going to a Filipino Luau down in Watsonville. This big Filipino community thing is holding a big party there [they do that like a few times a month but my mom only goes to a couple of them since she hates a lot of the people in the Filipino community] and my mom is dragging me along. Well, not really "drag", since I agreed to go with her. Maybe I'll meet some cute guys, you never know. lol. I think Melinda and Lorraine's parents are going. I'll probably just do my laundry and get ready for school [starts on the 27th] before the party or something. Hrm.


I have no idea what I'm going to be doing on Sunday. I might just wing it.. I might call someone to see if they want to hang out.. I might play DDR to try to lose a little extra pounds before school starts.. I might go shopping.. I DON'T KNOW.


Hehe. Having this much free time drives me nuts. ^^;;

Tuesday, August 19, 2003

Damnit damnit damnit i accdentally wrote over this post asdfhaksjdfhkajshfasdf now I forgot what it was about *cry*

Monday, August 18, 2003

Song of the moment: Don't call me baby by Madison Avenue



Work today was pretty cool... for me, anyways. The slackers were finally punished!! lol. This girl named Jessica was sent home early (like right when I got there... around 4 and she was supposed to work until 8:30) because she was doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AS USUAL. The dumb bitch that she was, she started arguing with the manager and Sue was all, "Do you want me to tell you not to come back at all?" and fucking Jessica was still arguing and she even slammed the door behind her. She's the same person that I've complain about before [in this blog] and fuck, if it wasn't for work, I would seriously kick her ass. Seriously.


Anywho, later on, Stanley [one of the assistant managers] was getting reaaalllly annoyed by this guy named Isaac because he kept arguing with Stanley about everything and shit and Stanley got all pissed off. It was actually pretty funny, but I got a little scared of Stanley for a bit. He started to remind me of my grandfather and i was like... whoa, wierd. He's pretty cool though, he's like my favorite manager. He even volunteered to mop the floor and told me to just clock out. I felt kind of bad, but my sister was waiting for me so I left.


Hmm, my sister. She actually talked to me when she picked me up. She was like, "Are you still mad at me from the other day?" and I just said, "I don't know, not really.... I don't really care" and then we just talked about how we got into that fight and she apologized first. I was feeling a little awkward and totally wasn't in the mood for getting emotional or whatever but then I didn't want her to feel all bad that I was giving her attitude, so I just put on a fake one and acted all nice and shit. Keyword: acted. I totally wasn't feeling that way, but I just put on a show for her. She deserves it for always being the one that breaks down and apologizes first. I'm always too stubborn, lol.


Oh!!! I'm applying for Safeway, w00t. 16 year olds start off at 8.30 an hour, you get paid like 10 something on Sundays, and you get paid TRIPLE on holidays. How fucking awsome is that? This guy named Jose that I used to work with at Hodgies told me that some guy just quit, so I should go there tommorow and talk to the manager or something. I wonder what I should wear... probably something presentable, since they might give me an interview on the spot. Nothing punky, that's for sure. haha.


I am NOT pangit: have you seen mierl lately?
Resume Stylez: Yeah.
Resume Stylez: Yesterday.
I am NOT pangit: you guys gotta visit us dude!
I am NOT pangit: =P

Resume Stylez: I had to show him how swollen my hand and my cheek is.
Resume Stylez: We will.
Resume Stylez: Don't worry.
I am NOT pangit: hehe cool ;D
I am NOT pangit: why are your hands and cheeks swollen?

Resume Stylez: I got into a fight.
Resume Stylez: With 3 beaners.
Resume Stylez: They tried to jump me so I kicked their ass.
Resume Stylez: Mierl said when?
I am NOT pangit: whoa shit
I am NOT pangit: damn
I am NOT pangit: you kicked their ass?
I am NOT pangit: lol
I am NOT pangit: that's cool
I am NOT pangit: why did they jump you?

Resume Stylez: 'Cause they were jumpin my friend.
Resume Stylez: So I had to help him.
I am NOT pangit: ahh


Aramis, Aramis, Aramis. That crazy little Filipino. lol.

Anywho, I should go now and shower. I smell like a big greasy corn dog. Eww.

Song of the moment: Sparkles by DJ Tiesto


Gahh, I'm starting to get into Electronica/Trance/Techno again. lol. Anywho, yesterday was pretty awsome, even though I had none of it planned. After work, I went to the arcade and talked with Daniel for a bit and we played Dance Maniax. *sigh* But then he left to go somewhere and Janetta dragged me along to go do kareoke so I didn't see him afterwards. He probably thought I ditched him or something. So yeah, I sang like 5 songs in kareoke and left around 7-8ish and went to the arcade. I kicked some random guy's ass in Initial D and I was feeling all good until I saw Mike and his friend Orlando. Orlando challenged me and let me win on the first round [because Juan told him to, since that was his car] and he totally beat my ass on the second time around. I came off as a bitch and got all bitter, and later on he asked Mike if I was mad at him or something. lol =X


So yeah, I hung out with Mike and his friends for a while in the arcade. I feel hella bad for blocking Mike earlier on AIM... but whatever. They drove me home afterwards and I gave Orlando [Roli] my number and screen name and told him to call me or something the next time they go to the Boardwalk so I could get them free parking. Hahaha, everyone that plays Initial D is all scared of him. He's beaten all of Santa Cruz's best players but he told me that hella people at SVGL are a lot better than him, which makes me want to take Dara and Juan over there and show them how the "real players" do it. ROFL.


Hrm, I'm probably going to hang out with Isaac sometime this week, hopefully. I think Jaime is going to the Boardwalk today so I'll just go there early just in case he is because I haven't seen that fool in a long time [except for that two whole minutes I saw him at Initial D].


Wheeeeeee.... I'm all done with Hodgies and this Wednesday is my last day at Twisselmans! Yay!